At last can do some blogging

At last, after 2 meeks of absence i found some free time to do some blogging. anyway almost 2 weeks without surfing is indeed dreadful. i felt partially disconnected to the world. everything that i pursue in the pass, stories on politics, electronics, h1n1, windows 7 and many many more juz stop the day before the day i went to matrix. anyway quite a frustrating one.
but thank God i adapt quite well here. for the first 2 days really disaster. felt so homesick. u know why??? juz imagine sleeping at bout 12 midnight wake up 4 in the morning. have to go do exercise and hear those boring ceramah. some quite interesting but others really monotonous. in some sessions i even fall asleep though not a soundly one.
however somehow it relates to my neglecgence of the bible the first 2 days. i really can't help it. too tired sleepy n no time. i always tell myself to read the bible and pray sometime but it seems tat my exhaustion has overcome me. right after tidy up i directly fall on to my bed n sleep. those two days really frustrating. my mood becomes extremely not good. though those facsilators are not as bad as i thought esspecially the boys side quite ok la. dunno the girls side. mee mee seems frus bout the condition there.
but the turn around came when i finally try my best n spend some time reading the bible n pray. the results blast me of. though still very tired but my mood get better. i start to look things in the more positive way. even when i was punish to dance in front of 2000++ students juz becoz one of my roomates didn't off the fans before he went out, i juz dun feel angry at all. if the previous day i sure i will say all the bad things bout him in my heart. but surprisingly i dun even have tat kind of anger. its totally a zero anger tat i myself surprised. so remeber to read the bible and pray everyday.
the following week the studies start. my deputy director say orientation is nothing. after the orientation closing ceremony he said: "welcome to the coolest part of hell." meaning studies are the real challenge we have to face. luckily it not hard for me. still got time to relax. n indeed i can catch up quite easily. juz some parts a bit complex. luckily most of my lectures are good. a get more chinese lecturers than anyone else. my physics tutorial lecturer though a malay, commands good english and physics eventhough he major in biology in his uni. So quitely smooth experience for me here. but of course sometimes still miss home so much. though i might not talk a lot with my family at home but somehow i really miss their companion. n also all of my friends n churchmates, esspecially my best friend rachel. long time too no chat with elton. miss so much. yesterday night i look at some pics for 5s1. really miss so much all the time we have together. but leaving childhood friend is a must for most of us. we have to grow up. however looking back to the past is really a motivating thing for me. it teach me to value every opportunity tat God gives. this opportunity will also eventually become a past, so why no value it and squeeze out the best memories out of it. of course there are bad memories too but that will also be a lesson in the future not to repeat the same mistake.
anyway specially directed to my best friend. i read ur blog juz now. some indeed good memories for u and some not so good ones. but anyway continue to have faith in God. No need to say sorry for whatever guilt u have for me. i know how u feel and know wat u are facing. actually somehow, i dunno, both of us are made to be same, so i know more bout u juz by feelings. i am sure u are the same. both of us are made to be refuge for each other. so dun feel guilt for whatever u try to hide, i also have something i hide from u also. but somehow by feeling u might know wat i am hiding too. juz remember we are the refuge for each other. happiness n joy both of us might not necessarily have to share together, but grievances, sadness, disappointments n maybe even break downs in our lives we will go through together under the guildance of God. so be sure to continue to have faith in God. eventhough we might far away from each other but juz pray n feel, God will lead us. Be happy always n dun put me above God when u need refuge. remember both of us are instruments of God that He provides for each other, so dun put instruments above their Owner.
Anyway that's it. Happy not alone here. So many friends from 5s1 n new friends. dun so xie mu, juz remember Jesus is our best Friend n as long as we remain as His best friend, He will provide us with all we need.

Last Night in Sarikei, at least with so many friends around

Its late night and i will be going 2moro.
so juz a short one.
Yesterday and today is really a great test for me.
I am leaving Sarikei anyway for Labuan.
But most importantly is what happen on Friday, the night jpa was announce.
Anyway right after i receive news from A Tong at three that jpa will be announced at 5pm , I juz felt all of a sudden I need to pray.
Though this time is not for myself though I hope I can get it.
It's for someone else.
I tell God that He has done something unexpected and really seems impossible to our SPM results and really somehow I really dun think we should get such results.
So since He has dun something impossible, let Him show us miracle too for jpa.
I pray really hard for about 2 hours.
And u see results are indeed a miracle.
I was extremely happy when i knew the results. God answered my prayer with the answer YES.
Though I didn't get it, but the one who need it the most gets it.
So the lesson is really whatever God do is always the best for us. Whether is good or bad in our eyes, we must learn to see things with the eyes of faith.
And not only that, because of one person praying for juz one matter or another person many others too will be blessed too. U never know how God works.
Remember the story of Abraham pleading for Sodom and Gommorah.
Abraham ask God if He will the 2 cities if there are 50 innocent people in them. God says He would spare the whole city for the sake of those 50 people.
Then Abraham ask again is there is 45, then 40, 30, 20 and 10. God's answer is still the same.
For the sake of even 10 people God will spare them all.
So remember God will change even the whole world juz for the sake of u, praying and seeking Him.
And becoz of that many others will be blessed.
How amazing is our Father.
So put ur trust fully in Him. Even though things seem hopeless, there is always a way prepare by God. The only question is really are u really willing to believe that there is that way out.
I may be going but for all of my friends, thanks for supporting me always. I know there are times i have done wrongly but i sincerely hope for ur forgiveness.
I really dun like to say farewell but things are like that. When time comes, we have to face it.
Bye my friends, but i believe with God's will we will meet again somewhere, someday.
And really to my very special friend, I really dun wat to express but i am sure deep in ur heart u know wat i wan to say.
That's all, Good Night and Farewell.

A sad day for Malaysia

Well well well
Indeed a sad day in the the history of Malaysia.
Few months ago, a head of government is removed illegally
today its the head of legislature turn.
Today's events which unfolds in Perak clearly show a bias and the unindependency of the Malaysia civil servants.
I am not saying all of them, just some of them who are clearly violating the constitution which states that the civil service must be indepedent from politics.
But today's events clearly showed that they are not.
I don't know what's their problem. Maybe some are under pressure.
But I am sure some of them are either bias or do so because of some "benefits".
That's why many others also took the blame coz they have families and many things to protect. That's why they are not willing to take up the risk to stand up against those evil forces.
Malaysians will remember what happened today and will punish those responsible for the crisis.
Anyway for those not knowing what's happening, juz a brief cap.
Few months ago, three Pakatan assemblymen defected to BN.
The Menteri Besar that time advise the Sultan of Perak to dissolve the Assembly.
However he refused and he does have the right to refused and ask the Menteri Besar who is Nizar to resign.
Nizar refused to resign and again he also has the right to do so.
However, the Sultan which Najib's advise appoint Zambry as new MB.
What I don't understand is Nizar haven't resign but the Sultan appointed a new one making it 2 MBs in Perak. So which is the legal one?
Sultan say if Nizar didn't resign the MB's seat is considered vacated.
But as Mahathir said, a Ruler have the right to appoint a MB but not remove the MB as provided in the constitution, and the seat can only be vacated if the MB resigns, the Dewan Undangan Negeri dissolved, or a successful motion of no confidence is moved by DUN against the MB.
However none of these happened.
Then the Speaker of DUN who is the head of legislature move to suspend the newly appointed MB and his EXCOs (same as Jemaah Menteri) from the DUN on the basis that their appointment is illegal.
These make the EXCO paralysed as they don't get support from DUN.
However things happened the way it should not be today.
The DUN convenes and the motion is moved to remove the Speaker by Zambry.
The first question is Zambry is suspended and he doesn't have the right even to enter the Dewan.
The Speaker ordered the Segeant of Arms who are the guards of the Dewan to bring Zambry and his EXCOs out but the guards do nothing.
By right they should follow only the orders of the Speaker who is the head of legislature.
Secondly, the Speaker rejected the motion to removed him and it's his power to reject any motion in the Dewan. So how come in the end he is removed?
Zambry move another motion to appoint a new Speaker but again rejected.
But the BN assemblymen raised their hands in support and a new Speaker is appointed just like that.
The real Speaker's microphone is turned off so that only that of the illegal Speaker functions.
The new Speaker ordered the police and some outsiders to force the real Speaker out.
By right nobody should enter the Dewan except the Sultan or his repesentative, the Assemblymen and the staffs of the Dewan. Even the police cannot come in.
So you can imagine the questionable independence of the police and the staffs of the Dewan.
Just imagine a head of goverment and a head of legislature is removed just like that by force and not through legal proceedings.
Of course starting tommorow all that happens today will go to the courts and I realy hope the judges will be wise enough to take action against those responsible as even the public knows who is right and who is wrong.
And to all Malaysians get ready to do your job in the next general elections. Your Mother Nation is crying for help. Even for those in the overseas, don't leave your counterparts in Malaysia to do these alone.
Malaysia is already bruised by those irresponsible. Reforms are painful. Many will be sacrificed even in bloody means. But if we don't do these now, our children will have to do it and by that time more will suffer.
SHOW THE MIGHT OF THE RAKYAT
COME TOGETHER, VOTE AND REFORM THE NATION
MALAYSIA IS NOT PERFECT
BUT ALL OF US HAVE THE RESPONSIBLITY TO PERFECT HER